For the past several days I've been slaving away my thesis in the library, this album has been my company. And now... I dedicate it to my girlfriend in Copenhagen... yes dear, I feel your pain! Men are schmucks sometimes! Maybe he'll still come around... Have fun there and see you soon!

It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry

There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew

I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to

Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay

Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair

I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin

I can't hold on forever baby
I'll be okay

Manila, Manila

I've always been bad with directions. I usually know how to get to some place but can't figure how to get back... maybe some sort of dyslexia. Today, the venture partners, that's Tintin and I, had another road trip. This time our destination was suppose to be Bambang along the LRT. All we had to do was follow the LRT right?! Wrong!!! Missed a turn ended up in Quiapo and then Espana. Then we went all around to get to Bambang. I got caught by some traffic enforcer because I beat the red light because I was looking at the wrong stop light. The partner of the big, pot-bellied guy said we were obviously lost, gave us directions, and then asked us for snack money. The hell! So I gave P100 instead because that was the smallest bill I had in my wallet. When we finally saw Bambang we had to still drive around several times to look for a parking and ended up entering a one way road.

I just borrowed my brother's car for the afternoon while he was still in the office. We got back a little late because of the traffic too. We walked from Dela Costa to AIM because my brother didn't want to drive us back to school... he had a date. He offered to pay my cab... duh?! Some to think of it, I should've taken the money to get back what I gave those stupid traffic guys.

All in all... another fun-filled day doing my thesis!

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Would life be easier if we could erase memories... people, events, and places... that we would want to forget? In this movie, a procedure called Lacuna was suppose to do just that. Joel (Jim Carrey) and Clementine (Kate Winslet) tried to erase each other from their memories when cracks started showing in their relationship. But somehow while under the procedure, Joel found a way to sneak several memories in other parts of his brain. I guess, no matter how much his mind would want to forget... his heart won't let him.

My friends know I hate regrets and I never regretted anything I did or didn't do (I know some people hate this about me) because there's no one else to blame for those decisions except myself. But, I do have several memories I'd like to forget. Just to ease the sadness... or embarrassment whenever I remember.

I wonder how many people would erase me from their memory if they could... and I also wonder how much of my life's painful or lonely experiences I would want to forget...

The Angst-y Kelly

I'm lovin' Kelly Clarkson lately. Saw the video of this song and remembered the days when I used to be into the angst-filled songs of Alanis Morisette.

SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Finding Love All Around

I just finished watching Outback Jack. Just one of the few reality shows with men and women supposedly finding each other through a series of tests and eliminations. Finding love now has been a commodity taken advantage by producers... Who Wants To Marry My Dad, Meet My Folks, Mr. Personality, The Bachelor, and The Bachelorette, are some stupid shows that think they could hook up people and give them the "happily ever after" everybody's been looking for. Can two people really be forced to fall in love in an artificially made up world?!

As if it's not hard enough to find the love the regular way...

Guy-Lit

I just finished reading one of the three books I gave Martin for his birthday. It's one of those I call guy-literature, male version of Bridget Jones. It's kinda weird reading from a guy's perspective, but it was refreshing nonetheless. Lots of quotable lines.



"Everybody loves a lover but too many lack the Staying Power. Love should be fatal. You should never recover from it. If you can, then it wasn't love."



-- Will Kelly from "The Legendary Girlfriend"

Food Trip

I'm probably PMS-ing because I've been craving for all sorts of food lately...



1. isaw - Grilled intestines of pig or chicken. Specifically from Mang Larry's Isawan beside the post office in UP (University of the Philippines). Dipped in their very own home-made vinegar.

2. Chocolates - Mars, Snickers, and Violet Crumble

3. Chicken Joy - I found out a two-piece Chicken Joy Meal now costs P105!!!

4. Candy Cane - I missed this out last Christmas

5. Cotton Candy - The huge ones!

6. FIC (Fruits in Ice Cream) - I'm loyal to Rocky Road but I love Dulce de Leche too

7. Twin Popsies - Orange flavor

8. Honey Cake - I hate Red Ribbon! They don't wanna sell it by slice!



I remember when I was in high school, my friends (Lego Gang) and I would stay late in school and pool in whatever money we had left. Then we'd buy all sorts of junk food from the canteen (a.k.a. caf for the konyo people). We'd slump on the floor in front of our class room, junk food strewn all around us, and we'd play stupid games till the last bus trip home.



I wonder what brought that memory back to me?



I'm definitely PMS-ing!